My stormy seas arrived in 2018. I watched my best friend go through

a traumatic experience, and that triggered the anxiousness that had always been underlying that I just thought was "normal." It felt like chaos had erupted inside of me. I had no control over how I felt. Tension lived in my body—especially in my throat, stomach, and chest—and it never seemed to ease up. Suddenly, life became complicated. The waves engulfed me and I could barely come up for air. I felt terrible and tried to distract myself by spending all my time with others and working out excessively. Breakdown after breakdown, over and over. This went on for about a year.

When COVID locked down the world

in 2020, the external world I had been clinging to for dear life was no longer there for me. I had just lost the job I loved, and I felt really lost. I began drinking a lot more frequently for the

first few months, telling myself it was

just a fun thing to do to pass the time, when really I was trying to numb the overwhelm and constant fear of what I was going to do with my life that was beneath the surface. But there was a blessing in all of this. The treasures that were hidden within my currents were beginning to emerge. From this space

of isolation and never ending free time, I started to dip my toe into my inner world.

I kept finding signs of the unknown path

I was meant to explore in bookstores. The most pivotal one happened in one of the most beautiful bookstores I've ever seen, in Victoria, BC. I strangely felt called to the spiritual section—a section I had never bought anything from before. I looked for an hour and found

a book called The Call of Intuition by Kris Franken. This was my introduction to what a connection with myself and to the universe could look like. I was hooked.

I dove deep into the moon pool of

self-discovery. Shadow work. Prayer. Spiritual practices. Law of attraction. Mindset work. Women's circles. Basically anything I thought would help me feel better, I tried. At one point, my morning routine was over two hours long with all the practices I was trying to cram in. I loved that these new meditations, breathwork sessions, EFT practices, Etc, were supporting me in the moment with getting my feelings under control. But in my day-to-day life, I still felt enslaved by them. Like I could only have temporary fixes. Feeling good as my foundation still felt so far away.

I started diving into mindset work because my Dad is a mindset coach and I had always known that what

you think is what you live. But honestly, with my nervous system being so out

of whack and me being so afraid of creating even worse feelings and experiences in my life, I started living in more fear than before. I thought I could never think a negative thought. I blamed myself for all the horrible things I had co-created in my life subconsciously. It was a rough time filled with a lot of self-criticism and trial and error. As well as high highs and low lows.

By the time I got to 2024, I felt so overwhelmed and discouraged. Things had improved, yes. My nervous system was feeling more regulated and I was feeling like an upgraded version of me. But something was still missing, I felt it deep in my soul. My saving grace was doing a six-month life purpose coaching certification through Highest Self Institute. It was my first step into the coaching world and I was so excited for it. I wanted to learn how to help myself and help others through it as well. Although I ended up not loving the program, I took away the biggest valuable insight I had ever received in my life: that embodiment was the way of living our most enjoyable lives. In the moment, I didn't really know what that meant. But from the short module that was dedicated to it in the program, I discovered that intentional movement and awareness of the body is a key piece in feeling good from the inside out.

I remember one day specifically where everything clicked for me around this. I had just gotten off one of the coaching calls, and I honestly didn't feel great. I was comparing myself to the other women in the program, seeing how far ahead some of them were. I just sat there feeling out of it when I heard a voice in my head say, "Move your body. Dance through this." At first, I didn't want to because of my bad mood. But I just felt like it was what I was meant to do in that moment, so I trusted it. I put a song on and started to move. Not even a minute in, I was on the floor crying my eyes out. It's like the dancing had allowed my body to just release what it was feeling instead of needing to think about it (which would always keep me stuck there). I remember being amazed and shocked by how good I felt after that experience. That day, my life changed.

I began moving with and holding space for my body every day. I ended 2024 saying it was the worst year of my life. But looking back, I think it was the best. Because I learned what was missing all these years. It took me integrating and shedding all those layers I had felt so scared to shine the light on before. Which started to help me expand and grow out of all the ways I thought I "had" to live. I even started sharing content on social media about my journey, hoping it would inspire and support others who were going through similar things—and to show myself that I wasn't alone. That's something I still do today, and I've really loved seeing my content evolve with me and meeting more of you amazing souls through it.

The cherry on top was having my teacher, Matthew Cooke, reach out to me through Instagram earlier this year. We developed a friendship, and when we had our first Zoom call together, I instantly said yes to his program—a three-month somatic coaching certification. It was one of the quickest full-body yeses I've ever experienced. And it's still the best course I've ever taken. Through nurturing my mind-body connection and truly listening to my body, I've felt the best I ever have in my life so far. I have come back to my wholeness and reclaimed my power that I know is always here for me. I love what I do every day. I know how to support myself when big feelings come up. I ride my waves with compassion. And to me, that is everything. I was able to create a foundation of safety and regulation within myself that now ripples out into the rest of my life. The past 8 years of my life have prepared me for right now. For finally going after my dreams and making the impact I've always wanted to—by helping you feel better in your body and live a life you love while doing so.